12th April 2012
Fighting for life despite thousands of “doctors”
The last time I literally fought for my life was when I faced extreme RSI pain and burning across the upper body. For those who don't understand chronic pain it will sound odd that someone could use such strong words ("fighting for life"). But when you appear ABSOLUTELY fine from outside but are burning with pain inside, things become really bad: worse (at least mentally) than if you had a major bleeding injury that was evident to everyone. You suffer massive endless pain and burning, and other deplorable sensations, but none can see anything wrong with you.
That's when I hunted from pillar to post for solutions: going to one "doctor" (medical quack, with medical degree or otherwise) after another. Three and a half years later, after tens of REALLY STUPID "doctors" had miserably failed in even providing the remotest diagnosis, and after I had spent endless ours studying the medical and other literature (I read as widely as I possibly could), I finally found the possible answer that led to the remedy.
Today I'm almost pain free (not entirely since I do type excessively – once again) because I have mastered the relevant exercises and fitness regime. Pain comes back if I don't exercise rigorously every second day. But my satisfaction is that I fought back for my life and won. I detest the ignorant medical profession and give credit to qualities of PERSISTENCE, STAMINA and CRITICAL THINKING for my fortune in finally finding the answer.
This time, though, the fight is much harder.
This time the issue is eye pain and terrible burning, stabbing and other deplorable sensations (photosensitivity, etc), and unrelenting headache. One swims in pain the whole day, but even worse, this pain then refers across the entire body, including to the legs and feet (a sensation of great irritation and nausea) which makes one feel like fainting. Exhaustion sets in virtually the moment one wakes up.
The FOOL medical profession has been of no help whatsoever. These people SIMPLY DO NOT HAVE THE CAPACITY or patience to understand anything complex.
They have crammed for their exams and know only their own little patch (and that too, very poorly). Blind to the complexity of the human body, they blabber nonsense, charge big money, and send off patients into the ether for the patients to either commit suicide, or to find the remedy themselves – if they can.
Sometimes I feel the world might as well not have had "doctors".
Despite this terrible reality of the world in which we live, I would like to reach out to millions of others who have been BADLY let down by the medical profession.
Let me assure you: there is ALWAYS an answer. The body is a PHYSICAL entity (machine) that can be understood and mastered.
For instance, I have full confidence in my ability to find an answer through careful scientific analysis and experiment. The trick is to understand all causes, test everything that is possible, try out all possible remedies, and then determine correlations between particular treatments and the consequent sensations.
Unfortunately, determining ALL causes is very hard. That's what takes the longest (and that's where doctors primarily fail: they do NOT try out all causes). This generally involves reading up on MASSIVE amounts of medical SCIENCE, but also patients' experiences on google, etc.
An example is the analysis I have been conducting of my eyes. After nearly 18 months of suffering, I'm coming closer to the cause. I found, today, an online mindmap tool. Here's my current mindmap.
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This mindmap only provides highlights of possible causes and potential remedies. Underpinning this is EXTENSIVE scientific analysis – on a scale that doctors perhaps CAN'T COMPREHEND. Since it will take me too long to document that analysis, I wont' try.
But unfortunately, such analysis is only the beginning. I'm still far from determining the cause, leave alone the solution.
Since I don't have any answer, why do I publish this?
Mainly to provide courage and support to those who, like me, are suffering GREATLY, but have no one in this whole world to help them. They are on their own. To such people I say: Trust IN YOURSELF. If you apply your mind carefully enough, you will ultimately find the answer.
At least one can try. Pain is just another part of life.